How do I go on with life with this immense amount of depression at home? I don’t show any sadness at school or in public, but these people at home are just making it worse. Who do I have now? I don’t have anyone to run to, I have to deal with this at home everyday. It’s foreboding, I have to take the crap that people throw at me. How does my body, mentally, deal with this? How am I still alive?

Suicide has crossed my mind millions of times, and yes, it is the easy way out. But I’m too scared to do that. I’m not one to deteriorate my health just because of my emotions. I don’t do that. It’s not in my blood. I can never do that type of shit, those coping methods are fucking stupid and ridiculous. I’ll just have to keep holding on, and pull through. All you see of me, will be gone soon.

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2. princearcanine said: It’s as if you’ve put every thought in my head into actual words. Thank you.
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