I really hate how everyone in this house relies on my mom. This situation has gotten critical. This is the decision that is holding me back from going far away from home to go to college, or just to go to community college worrying about how my mom is overdoing things.

She has three kids already; my brother, me, and my sister. And her job is to take care of us. Then we moved into this god damn house. I already knew from the beginning that we were in deep shit, but with my grandpa passing away, my dad had no choice but to move in without losing the house. So we had to move in. Already, the people living in this house were lazy assholes. Living and cheating off the government, shit wasn’t going to get you anywhere. 

They became even lazier. No wonder why my uncle wanted to move out in the first place, but he just contributes to this laziness because his wife is a selfish bitch. But anyway, this shit is making me worry. If I leave far away, my mom would be overwhelmed. She’s only staying with my dad for us, and us only. My sister is only 7-years-old and she doesn’t know anything about the whole situation, she’s naive. But my mom hung in there, dealing my dad’s shit and his bitchy ass mouth. I am the only one who sets the mood. I’m the only one who dares open their mouth because everyone else is too fucking scared of everyone else.

What the hell is there to be scared of? They don’t even work, they leave the house all fucking messy, they noisy, they are lazy. Then my mom comes home from work all tired, and she STILL cooks to feed us. My cousin had her third child, and she still hasn’t moved out of this house. What the fuck are you popping babies out for? All you hear in their room is little fucking kids crying and being noisy. Her husband: all he does is work, and keeps his kids and wife at home all day and weekend. Did she like this lifestyle? She can’t really complain because she put it upon herself.

*Sigh* Am I really going to leave for college only to leave my mom like this? My mom is way too nice and she see’s them as family. Who gives a shit if they’re family mom, they don’t contribute nothing to this house. :( It makes so sad that you overwork yourself, and I can’t do anything to help it.