For some odd reason, I feel compelled to not come on here for a few days. In all honesty, I only check tumblr about two times a day. And then, I tend to stay on here when I stay up late.. which is every day for the past few months. You see, I’ve been living off the internet for entertainment because I took a semester off college. I guess I just want to challenge myself to not come on here for.. three days. I’m going to do it. I’ll probably lose followers, get messages and don’t reply to them, but I just want to test myself to see if I have self control because I’ve been addicted to tumblr lately. I’ve invested so much time on this site for a good few months, and I guess I need a short hiatus. I went without Facebook for three months and reactivated to talk to a few people. So I can probably do this same exact thing on tumblr, but for three days.

Also, I bought things to make cupcakes! I found some really expensive aluminium foil cupcake liners, and of course I bought them. I also bought a new piping bag and picked out a cool star tip. I just felt like making cupcakes because I haven’t baked in a while.

Well, I’m going to start at midnight tonight. No tumblr. I’m also going to delete the app on my phone so that I won’t go on. So talk to me while you can! And if you want, you can add me on Facebook, because I’ll periodically check it for messages! (Link on my profile in the description.)

Don’t you just love it when you catch people Snap Chatting? Most of the time it’s a really weird face that’s dubbed with a faux double chin. I caught two people doing it but they said I couldn’t upload them and told me to delete them.. however, Android is equipped with dropbox so.. I have them!

So today, I tended my backyard. I got rid of half of the weeds on the first tier of dirt. The second tier will be done hopefully by the end of this week so we can start planting vegetables. I get so excited when planting veggies because I like the act of nurturing them. Going into my backyard twice a day to see if the plants have enough water, manure, and to check if it is growing properly. And the other best thing about it, is that I get organic veggies for free! I usually dry out old vegetable seeds near the end of the year, and save them in the shed to plant them during the mid-Spring time.

This year we have sugarcane, cherry tomatoes, kabocha squash, long beans, potatoes, corn, Thai and Italian basil, and mint all planted already. I have a really big backyard and it’s really hard to maintain the weeds. But I’m excited for fresh, organic, homegrown veggies this summer.

I spent the whole day perfecting Mercenaries mode on Resident Evil 6 with Ada and all I have to say is that it’s really addicting.

Buuuuut, anyone wanna play? PSN?

Add me: chocolatemoomoos

Someone added me and played with me for about an hour! :D

Whoever that was, thank you!

Happy Mother’s Day! Firstly, and most importantly, I would like to thank you for giving me life and for putting up with me and my antics. Every day, I strive to be a better son and I hope you are noticing this. Always know that I love you infinitely and I would be lost in translation without you. I hope you’re healthy and I hope many year’s to come in your life.

You’ve taught me my passion and the fundamentals of life. Thank you so much for everything. I can’t say it enough.

Nate

I feel like I don’t know my followers that well unless I know a certain thing about them.. does that make any sense? Like, you don’t have to open up to me, because I’m a complete stranger, but I would love to know more about my followers so that we have that small connection.

It makes it more worthwhile and I feel that our friendship is more genuine. I have such good relationships with people on here because I usually, or they usually, send a small reply or ask sparking up interest or wanting to have a casual conversation. I like making friends on here; tumblr is a bit of a safe haven where I can most of the time, seek refuge. If that makes any sense.

I just like making friends on here.

As a kid, I loved Sailor Moon. I’d prefer it over Dragon Ball Z and I would often get ridiculed because of it. I’m not afraid to admit this either, but I sang the songs, did little dances, and all that stuff to express how much I like Sailor Moon. However, my family gave me so much shit for it; albeit, it’s considered a “girl’s show” I still enjoyed it. I didn’t really care either. But as a kid, I thought that you should be able to express yourself as much as you want without being ridiculed or, in my case, have negative connotations of gay people.

In my circle of family members, I was often called faggot, fag, gay, all the homophobic slurs. Until one day I broke and yelled and pointed at their dirty little faces asking, “What’s wrong with being gay? Why can’t I like things that I like?” I didn’t really give a shit much and just lived life. The point of this post is to tell you all that I know how it feels to be ridiculed for who you are or who you aren’t. Even though I’m straight, I feel the need to feel sentiment towards the gay community and what they go through every single day because of their preferences.

Like, I don’t care anymore, that they called me those things. I finally stood my ass up and fought against it because I didn’t like the connotations behind ‘em, and I didn’t like being called those things. That’s why I get so offended when people use the word faggot or some slur like that. It annoys me to no end. But don’t get discouraged.

I just hope people will one day just stop with all the homophobic talk. Open people’s minds a bit. And I never understood getting irritated or offended by someone’s happiness.

I don’t think I’d be cut out to be a house husband because cleaning is really tiring. I emphasize ‘really’ and now I feel so much for men and women alike who say that staying home and maintaining the house is hard as having to go out and work at an actual job, because it is. Mopping the floor made me want to throw myself against the floor. My house is tile and hardwood and its approximately 1,600 square feet, so you get where I’m going at. Also, since its so big, there’s a lot of furniture to be dusted, sprayed down, and sanitized. The kitchen was pretty easy since we have granite countertops and I put foil over the entire top of the stove for easy cleaning. Adjusting the fine plates, utensils and other cook ware was a bit annoying too. And the bathroom, dear lord. I scrubbed the hell out of the toilet and bathtub. Nasty. And then finally came my room. I took my whole mattress outside and smacked it a couple hundred of times to get all the dust out. Then I had to drag it back in. Bleh.

I finally realize how hard it is being a house husband/wife. Not the life for me, no.

So I just got done watching this.

And I want to just thank myself for not going through a trend, scene, or phase when I was younger. “Good job, Nathan.” 

Looking back I don’t recall doing anything too wildly embarrassing. The only embarrassing thing I could think of was my taste in music because it was basically all the major rappers like Lil Wayne and all the junk on the radio. That was when I was a Freshman in High School I think. However, I am so glad that I didn’t do anything that would haunt me to this day.

You know, and the internet is a really amazing thing because we can basically record our lives to look back at it. Just like this blog — this is four years worth of stuff. I am embarrassed by my first ever post on this because I was being a little dumb tweenager, but nonetheless, I’m not embarrassed enough to delete it, because I do have that option.

But my god, I am pretty damn sure that these kids looking back at these videos of themselves, they’ll be so embarrassed of what they once were. I guess as you do grow older, you grow more wiser. But things on the internet can always come back to haunt you.